Who has it? What is it? How do we get it? Happiness is subjective for everyone, but happiness must be defined by every person in order to be tangible. How does one achieve a goal without measurable tasks? It seems impossible to seek happiness but not know what must be done daily to have it.
So what is happiness? I ask clients to pretend as though they have a magic wand which they will use to make their life happy overnight. Then I ask, 'what has changed?' I often hear crickets to this question because it is difficult to envision what needs to change in our lives in order to achieve happiness if we do not examine the elements that make up our own personal happiness. Many psychotherapists, psychologists, and others in helping professionals claim to be happiness experts, but in reality, everyone who comes to therapy is the master and expert of his or her own happiness. It takes applied self-exploration to know what comprises happiness for you.
What does happiness mean to you? Is it feeling fulfilled by your job and family? Is it obtaining a goal, like a college degree or promotion? Or is it living in the moment and taking in the beauty of your surroundings? Is happiness comprised of other emotions, such as relaxation, excitement, energy, concentration, sadness, despair, or contentment? These are great questions to ask, but the deeper question left unanswered is, what measurable/attainable tasks must I accomplish each day in order to achieve my goal of happiness?
Instead of thinking that happiness is something that happens to you, a passive state, try to conceptualize happiness as something that you cultivate and nurture daily. If your goal is to feel happiness and fulfillment for most of your day every day, the tasks of meeting this goal must be concrete and based on knowledge of yourself to inform your choices (e.g. eating ten cupcakes might make someone feel happy in the moment but may cause lethargy, anxiety, or depression in the coming hours or days. The net outcome is not happiness.)
Maintaining a mostly happy life involves hard work and dedication to your cause at times. For example, I know that 30 minutes to an hour of exercise every day makes me happier, calmer, and feel better. I still struggle to do this because it does not bring immediate satisfaction to me personally. It is hard work to put in the time to maintain happiness through exercise but I KNOW that if I broke down the net outcome hour by hour the net outcome would be happiness. It would look something like this:
Being happy and fulfilled can be exhausting, taxing, and overwhelming, especially if you struggle with depression, anxiety, or other life stressors. If this is the case, start small! Create a goal of feeling happy (or whatever positive feeling it is that you wish to feel) for 5 minutes, 15 minutes, or an hour every day. Don't focus on big, overwhelming goals, but rather look for small things that bring you happiness like drawing or painting, listening to music, dancing in your house, smiling, playing with an animal, or anything else that brings on feelings of happiness without detracting from your overall well-being.
What does a state of happiness look like to you? And what do you have to do daily to feel happy?
I joke, but it must be true! Hangovers can be particularly brutal because they can come with so much mental, physical, and emotional turmoil. Most commonly, those who suffer from severe symptoms find that their hangovers come with lots of anxiety. People feel badly about themselves, ashamed of their behavior, and generally feel negatively about life when in this state.
Hangovers can cause extreme anxiety as a symptom of the withdrawal from alcohol or other substances. Alcohol is a depressant, which means it slows the central nervous systems and blocks the brain's ability to produce stimulating chemicals. The withdrawal from this state of depression turns the system up-side-down. If we think of depression and anxiety on a spectrum, with depression at the far right and anxiety at the far left side, you can picture a pendulum swinging from one extreme to the other.
While withdrawing from alcohol, the body overcompensates by "swinging" to the left, toward anxiety. The central nervous system is very activated and the brain is producing stimulating chemicals, but the body and brain are tired, unrested, and confused. Especially for those who suffer from anxiety naturally, this can be a powerful and awful experience.
Tips for getting through a hangover:
1. Take it easy on yourself. If you are turning your anxiety inward, meaning you are thinking bad thoughts about yourself, know that they are chemically induced. Have a mantra and repeat it - "these thoughts aren't real and I'm ok." Don't make any big decisions or sweeping judgments while in this state - that may not be possible but try not to act on any of them!
2. Despite your urge to eat the entirety of the fast food menu, eat something good for your body. A salad with veggies or some fruit can get you on your way back to health. Alcohol also dehydrates the body so drink lots of water.
3. If you can bear it, exercise. Exercise stimulates all the right chemicals in your brain to release and ease your body and mind. It can also speed the release of toxins so that you can feel better faster. Even a brisk walk can make you feel better since some say that fresh air is a cure to hangovers.
Happy New Year! Take good care of yourselves.
Depression and anxiety go hand in hand. At times they are confusing bedfellows, but it is nearly impossible to have one without the other. For example, a woman says, "I feel depressed and can't get out of bed. Then my husband comes home and I just want to bite his head off. I'm such an awful person." This person isn't awful, she's suffering from a complex combination of anxiety and depression. Her anxiety may be manifesting as lashing out (or acting out behaviors) and one of depression's lesser known side effects is irritability, which can lead to such thoughts and behaviors.
The obvious definition of depression is "a depressed mood for most of the day and a diminished interest or pleasure in activities" in the words of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual-IV-TR (DSM). Another tricky depression antic is that it can be symptomatic in the form of low self-esteem or low self-image. You may hear someone saying things like "there's no excuse for the way I've messed up my life," or "it's my fault that I didn't go to work because I'm lazy." The DSM also points out "excessive and inappropriate guilt" as a symptom. This might manifest in an "I can't get over it" attitude or an "I'm totally unworthy of anything fun or good" campaign.
Other signs may be excessive crying, severe change in appetite, sleeping all the time or not sleeping at all, feelings of worthlessness, indecisiveness, lack of concentration, recurring thoughts or images of death, and at it's worst, ideas of suicide.
Anxiety can take on many forms like panic attacks, fears about being in public or socializing, and reactions to traumatic events, but in terms of depression, general anxiety can also be the perfect compliment to its counterpart, depression. Anxiety often produces excess chemicals in the brain that leave us feeling on edge, in hyper drive, overwhelmed, fatigued, unable to concentrate, irritable, tense, and not sleeping like we should.
It is important to understand the interaction of depression and anxiety on the mind and body to understand how to treat it. When a person is in a state of arousal (anxiety), the body and the brain work hard to calm the system, but over time those biological functions become overworked and no longer soothe our anxiety. We have to learn how to "override the system" in order to control our anxiety - namely, taking long deep breaths (in the nose, from the belly, and out the mouth), and changing our thought patterns when we become anxious or depressed.
Next time you think, "I'm such an idiot," and you can feel yourself turning red, feeling keyed up, or your heart beating quickly, stop and take 5 deep breaths while telling yourself something realistic about the problem. "I'm only human, and humans make mistakes." "This won't matter in one week's time." "I'm very smart, I just rushed and made a mistake that I can fix." Or, try to externalize the anxiety: "Anxiety is attempting to intrude on my mind and body right now, but it will not overtake me. I know how to breathe through this."
If you are feeling depressed, my best advice to you is to be kind to yourself and seek help. If you can lie in bed for an extra hour, and you feel like you need to, then do it. If you want to comfort yourself in some way to not feel so badly and it won't hurt you in the long run, I encourage it. We are taught to be so hard on ourselves and it is very important to fight the urge to push yourself to your limit all the time. Loved ones are the best antidote to depression, even though it may seem scary or impossible to share what you are going through. If you sincerely and repeatedly reach out to loved ones and still feel alone, seek help online, find a local support group, or get in touch with an organization who helps people in your situation. It is important that you feel understood and connected when experiencing depression and anxiety.
If your depression is to the point of suicidal thoughts or urges or thoughts of harming anyone, you should immediately seek help from a professional! Better yet, seek help from a professional before your symptoms are life-interfering. You do not have to wait until you are incapacitated to ask for help.
If you're having an, "oh great, one more thing to worry about" response to the unfamiliar word "Co-Narcissism," you're not alone. I am not a proponent of inventing and loosely wielding new psychological problems, diagnoses, and concerns for people seeking help and understanding through their interpersonal conflicts, low self-esteem, and a myriad of other problems that we experience in relationship with others. At times, I believe that labeling, classifying, and over-extending our language around mental well-being can create an overwhelming sense of helplessness. However, after reading "Co-Narcissism: How We Accommodate to Narcissist Parents," by Alan Rappoport, Ph.D. I felt eager to share this article because it has the potential to provide clarity, compassion, and peace of mind for those struggling to understand his or her complex relationships with parents, partners, children, and other significant others.
Whether you are a therapy participant, a therapist, or simply curious about relationships, I can say with near certainty that this topic will resonate with you. I hope this new term can be added to our vernacular of interpersonal dynamics and provide insight to those who are looking for healthy ways of connecting by examining existing, learned patterns of relating to the world. As you read, remember that there is no one interpretation through which you can see yourself or your loved ones. I will also add, in an effort to quell the mounting anxiety of those who fear that being termed "Co-Narcissistic" is a negative attribute, it is not. It is one of many lenses through which you may find answers to your questions as you reflect on your upbringing, behavior, depression, anxiety, and relationship patterns. In the words of Alan Rappoport, Ph.D.:
"This article introduces the term “co- narcissism” to refer to the way that people accommodate to narcissistic parents. I use the term narcissism here to refer to people with very low self-esteem who attempt to control others’ views of them for defensive purposes. They are interpersonally rigid, easily offended, self -absorbed, blaming, and find it difficult to empathize with others. Co- narcissistic people, as a result of their attempts to get along with their narcissistic parents, work hard to please others, defer to other’s opinions, worry about how others think and feel about them, are often depressed or anxious, find it hard to know their own views and experience, and take the blame for interpersonal problems. They fear being considered selfish if they act assertively.
If any of this sounds familiar, strap in for a fascinating read.
Reprinted with gratitude and the permission of Alan Rappoport, Ph.D. A PDF version of this article can be found among his publications on his website. If you would prefer to hear a reading of this article, Paul Gilmartin of The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast (http://mentalpod.com/) shares it with his listeners here.
Co-Narcissism: How We Accommodate to Narcissistic Parents Alan Rappoport, Ph.D.
This article introduces the term “co- narcissism” to refer to the way that people accommodate to narcissistic parents. I use the term narcissism here to refer to people with very low self-esteem who attempt to control others’ views of them for defensive purposes. They are interpersonally rigid, easily offended, self -absorbed, blaming, and find it difficult to empathize with others. Co- narcissistic people, as a result of their attempts to get along with their narcissistic parents, work hard to please others, defer to other’s opinions, worry about how others think and feel about them, are often depressed or anxious, find it hard to know their own views and experience, and take the blame for interpersonal problems. They fear being considered selfish if they act assertively. A high proportion of psychotherapy patients are co-narcissistic. The article discusses the co-narcissistic syndrome and its treatment, and gives case examples of patients who suffer from this problem.Narcissism
Narcissism, a psychological state rooted in extremely low self-esteem, is a common syndrome among the parents of psychotherapy patients. Narcissistic people are very fearful of not being well regarded by others, and they therefore attempt to control others’ behavior and viewpoints in order to protect their self-esteem. The underlying dynamic of narcissism is a deep, usually unconscious, sense of oneself as dangerously inadequate and vulnerable to blame and rejection. The common use of the term refers to some of the ways people defend themselves against this narcissistic dynamic: a concern with one’s own physical and social image, a preoccupation with one’s own thoughts and feelings, and a sense of grandiosity. There are, however, many other behaviors that can stem from narcissistic concerns, such as immersion in one’s own affairs to the exclusion of others, an inability to empathize with other’s experience, interpersonal rigidity, an insistence that one’s opinions and values are “right,” and a tendency to be easily offended and take things personally.
A high proportion of people in psychotherapy have adapted to life with narcissistic people and, as a result, have not been able to develop healthy means of self- expression and self-directedness. I have coined the term “co-narcissism” for this adaptation, which has the same relation to narcissism as “co-alcoholic” has to alcoholism and “co-dependent” has to dependency. Co-alcoholics unconsciously collaborate with alcoholics, making excuses for them and not confronting them about their problem in an assertive way. The same is true of the co-dependent person, who makes excuses for the other’s dependency and fills in for him or her as necessary. The wife of an abusive husband who takes the blame for her partner’s behavior is another example of taking responsibility for someone else’s problems. Both narcissism and co-narcissism are adaptations that children have made to cope with narcissistic parenting figures. To the best of my knowledge, every narcissistic and co- narcissistic person that I have encountered has had narcissistic parents, and the parents of their parents are reported to have been even more highly narcissistic.
To the extent that parents are narcissistic, they are controlling, blaming, self-absorbed, intolerant of others’ views, unaware of their children’s needs and of the effects of their behavior on their children, and require that the children see them as the parents wish to be seen. They may also demand certain behavior from their children because they see the children as extensions of themselves, and need the children to represent them in the world in ways that meet the parents’ emotional needs. (For example, a narcissistic father who was a lawyer demanded that his son, who had always been treated as the “favorite” in the family, enter the legal profession as well. When the son chose another career, the father rejected and disparaged him.) These traits will lead the parent to be very intrusive in some ways, and entirely neglectful in others. The children are punished if they do not respond adequately to the parents’ needs. This punishment may take a variety of forms, including physical abuse, angry outbursts, blame, attempts to instill guilt, emotional withdrawal, and criticism. Whatever form it takes, the purpose of the punishment is to enforce compliance with the parents’ narcissistic needs.Co-Narcissism
Children of narcissists tend to feel overly responsible for other people. They tend to assume that others’ needs are similar to those of their parents, and feel compelled to meet those needs by responding in the required manner. They tend to be unaware of their own feelings, needs, and experience, and fade into the background in relationships.
Co-narcissistic people are typically insecure because they have not been valued for themselves, and have been valued by their parents only to the extent that they meet their parents’ needs. They develop their self-concepts based on their parents’ treatment of them and therefore often have highly inaccurate ideas about who they are. For example, they may fear that they are inherently insensitive, selfish, defective, fearful, unloving, overly demanding, hard to satisfy, inhibited, and/or worthless.
People who behave co-narcissistically share a number of the following traits: they tend to have low self-esteem, work hard to please others, defer to others’ opinions, focus on others’ world views and are unaware of their own orientations, are often depressed or anxious, find it hard to know how they think and feel about a subject, doubt the validity of their own views and opinions (especially when these conflict with others’ views), and take the blame for interpersonal problems.
Often, the same person displays both narcissistic and co-narcissistic behaviors, depending on circumstances. A person who was raised by a narcissistic or a co- narcissistic parent tends to assume that, in any interpersonal interaction, one person is narcissistic and the other co-narcissistic, and often can play either part. Commonly, one parent was primarily narcissistic and the other parent primarily co-narcissistic, and so both orientations have been modeled for the child. Both conditions are rooted in low self- esteem. Both are ways of defending oneself from fears resulting from internalized criticisms and of coping with people who evoke these criticisms. Those who are primarily co-narcissistic may behave narcissistically when their self-esteem is threatened, or when their partners take the co-narcissistic role; people who primarily behave narcissistically may act co- narcissistically when they fear being held responsible and punished for another’s experience.
Narcissistic people blame others for their own problems. They tend not to seek psychotherapy because they fear that the therapist will see them as deficient and therefore are highly defensive in relation to therapists. They do not feel free or safe enough to examine their own behavior, and typically avoid the psychotherapy situation. Co-narcissists, however, are ready to accept blame and responsibility for problems, and are much more likely than narcissists to seek help because they often consider themselves to be the ones who need fixing.
The image I often keep in mind, and share with my patients regarding narcissism, is that the narcissist needs to be in the spotlight, and the co-narcissist serves as the audience. The narcissist is on stage, performing, and needing attention, appreciation, support, praise, reassurance, and encouragement, and the co-narcissist’s role is to provide these things. Co-narcissists are approved of and rewarded when they perform well in their role, but, otherwise, they are corrected and punished.
One of the critical aspects of the interpersonal situation when one person is either narcissistic or co-narcissistic is that it is not, in an important sense, a relationship. I define a relationship as an interpersonal interaction in which each person is able to consider and act on his or her own needs, experience, and point of view, as well as being able to consider and respond to the experience of the other person. Both people are important to each person. In a narcissistic encounter, there is, psychologically, only one person present. The co-narcissist disappears for both people, and only the narcissistic person’s experience is important. Children raised by narcissistic parents come to believe that all other people are narcissistic to some extent. As a result, they orient themselves around the other person in their relationships, lose a clear sense of themselves, and cannot express themselves easily nor participate fully in their lives.
All these adaptations are relatively unconscious, so most co-narcissistic people are not aware of the reasons for their behavior. They may think of themselves as inhibited and anxious by nature, lacking what it takes to be assertive in life. Their tendency to be unexpressive of their own thoughts and feelings and to support and encourage others’ needs creates something of an imbalance in their relationships, and other people may take more of the interpersonal space for themselves as a result, thereby giving the impression that they are, in fact, narcissists, as the co- narcissist fears they are.
Co-narcissistic people often fear they will be thought of as selfish if they act more assertively. Usually, they learned to think this way because one or both parents characterized them as selfish if they did not accommodate to the parent’s needs. I take patients’ concerns that they are selfish as an indication of narcissism in the parents, because the motivation of selfishness predominates in the minds of narcissistic people. It is a major component of their defensive style, and it is therefore a motivation they readily attribute to (or project onto) others.
There are three common types of responses by children to the interpersonal problems presented to them by their parents: identification, compliance, and rebellion (see Gootnick, 1997, for a more thorough discussion of these phenomena). Identification is the imitation of one or both parents, which may be required by parents in order for them to maintain a sense of connection with the child. In regard to narcissistic parents, the child must exhibit the same qualities, values, feelings, and behavior which the parent employs to defend his or her self-esteem. For example, a parent who is a bully may not only bully his child, but may require that the child become a bully as well. A parent whose self- esteem depends on his or her academic achievement may require that the child also be academically oriented, and value (or devalue) the child in relation to his or her accomplishments in this area. Identification is a response to the parent seeing the child as a representative of himself or herself, and is the price of connectedness with the parent. It results in the child becoming narcissistic herself.
Compliance refers to the co-narcissistic adaptation described earlier, wherein the child becomes the approving audience sought by the parent. The child is complying with the parent’s needs by being the counterpart the parent seeks. All three forms of adaptation (identification, compliance, and rebellion) can be seen as compliance in a larger sense, since, in every case, the child complies in some way with the needs of the parent, and is defined by the parent. What defines compliance in this sense is that the child becomes the counterpart the parent needs from moment to moment to help the parent manage threats to his or her self- esteem.
Rebellion refers to the state of fighting to not accept the dictates of the parent by behaving in opposition to them. An example of this behavior is that of an intelligent child who does poorly in school in response to his parent’s need that he be a high achiever. The critical issue here is that the child is unconsciously attempting to not submit to the parent’s definition of him despite his inner compulsion to comply with the parent’s needs. He therefore acts in a self- defeating manner in order to try to maintain a sense of independence. (If the pressure for compliance had not been internalized, the child would be free to be successful despite the parent’s tendency to co-opt his achievements.)Psychotherapy
Co-narcissistic people automatically and unconsciously assume that everyone is narcissistic. They have the same fear about the therapist, but are able to enter treatment because they also believe that the therapist may be different. The most significant aspect of co-narcissistic patients’ work in therapy consists of determining to what degree the therapist is narcissistic. We might even say that the therapy consists of helping the patient develop confidence that the therapist is not narcissistic . It is powerfully healing for the patient to experience a relationship that is not based on narcissism. Co-narcissistic people are therefore greatly helped by the therapist’s embodiment of Carl Rogers’ principles of accurate empathy, interpersonal warmth and positive regard, and personal genuineness. These behaviors by the therapist provide a direct contradiction to the experiences that have caused their problems. Patients will seek to determine how safe they are not to accommodate their behavior to the therapist’s imagined needs, but to be able to experience and express themselves freely. The patient will carefully observe the therapist’s behavior and make judgments about how much the therapist is able to consider the needs of the patient and how open he or she is to the patient’s experience. The patient will also want to see that the therapist is not co-narcissistic, so that the patient can use the therapist as a model who shows by example that she or he believes it is safe to be assertive and not to orient oneself around another’s needs. The patient will therefore observe the therapist for signs of how assertive he or she is, and also pay attention to examples the therapist may provide from his or her own life to assess how free of co-narcissism the therapist may be.
In addition to the beneficial effect of the relationship between therapist and patient, a major part of the therapy process involves understanding how events and experiences in patients’ early lives resulted in their current fears, inhibitions, and orientation towards others. I find it very helpful in my work as a therapist to explain narcissism and co-narcissism to my patients. Having an intellectual understanding of the nature of the problem goes a great distance towards helping them make sense of their lives and why their relationships take on the characteristics that they do. It also gives us a framework within which we can discuss the issues of concern to them, and helps them understand what to work on to free themselves from these problems. A description of my own theoretical approach can be found in the books, TransformativeRelationships (Silberschatz, 2005) and HowPsychotherapyWorks(Weiss, 1993).
Narcissistic people seek therapy much less frequently than those who are primarily co- narcissistic, and are more difficult to help. Their deep-seated conviction of their own worthlessness, and their strong defenses against the therapist discovering this “truth” about them, makes it difficult for them to feel safe with the therapist and to benefit from the therapeutic relationship. The therapist also has to cope with the patient’s poor ability to empathize with the therapist. This lack of empathy is manifest in a variety of inconsiderate behaviors, and can challenge the therapist’s ability to maintain a good sense of self-esteem. Narcissistic people, compared to co-narcissistic people, are therefore less personally satisfying for the therapist to work with when they do seek treatment. They are also less professionally rewarding to work with because of their difficulty in engaging in the therapeutic process. Treating them empathically, helping them to feel safer to empathize with others, not losing self-esteem in the face of inconsiderate behavior by the patient, and expressing one’s own experience as appropriate are all important elements in working with narcissistic people. (Once, when I told a narcissistic patient of mine that her criticisms of me were hurting my feelings, she was astonished. She said that she had no idea that her behavior had any effect on anyone. She became much kinder towards me following that interaction.) As with the co-narcissistic person, helping the person to gain an understanding of the origins of their problems (usually identification with a narcissistic parent) can also be very useful.Case Examples
Mario is the son of two narcissistic parents. His parents divorced when he was ten, and, thereafter, he spent half the week in each parent’s home. The difficulties this arrangement caused for him went unrecognized by either parent. Mario’s father was so isolated and self-centered that, during the times they were together, Mario was often completely ignored by his father and learned to endure long hours of loneliness without complaint. Mario’s mother was more able to engage with her son, as long as he was careful to attend to her emotional needs and not to make demands on her. Both parents moved frequently, making it hard for Mario to form friendships and develop a sense of connectedness, interpersonal security, and good self esteem outside of his immediate family. What proved of immense value to Mario in preventing more severe psychological damage than he might otherwise have suffered was that he spent summers with members of his extended family in Spain. These people were much healthier psychologically, and the relationships he had with them were supportive and rewarding.
Some of the effects of Mario’s upbringing were: a diminished awareness of his own feelings, needs, and point of view; a tendency to feel isolated and a difficulty connecting emotionally with others; a tendency to accept blame, control by others, and mistreatment without complaint and often without awareness that it was happening; and a loss of a sense of direction and purpose in life. He could also be moody and irritable.
As a teenager, Mario formed a relationship with Jill, whose parents were psychologically healthier, but whose mother was somewhat narcissistic. Her familiarity with narcissism and co-narcissism helped her relate to Mario, and Mario benefited by spending time with Jill’s family who were warm and accepting towards him. Mario and Jill eventually married and had two children. Mario did not finish college despite his high intelligence, but was successful in his career in business. He came to therapy at the insistence of his wife, who was troubled by his difficulty in forming good relationships with the children and his tendency to be interpersonally disconnected and insensitive. She was also troubled by the degree of influence his parents had over him. Mario had some appreciation for the validity of Jill’s concerns, and was distressed by the problems that occurred in his relationship with Jill.
Mario made good use of therapy. He initially discussed his wife’s concerns, and the problems these created for him. Her concerns primarily centered around his tendency to isolate himself, to go about his affairs without considering his effect on others, and not to maintain or value a close emotional connection with his children. She was also concerned about his tendency to idealize his parents, particularly his mother, and to make excuses for her behavior and not to recognize her self-centeredness with regard to himself or his family members. But Mario soon was able to understand how the experiences he had with his parents made it difficult for him to relate to others in a way that was satisfying to himself or to the other person. He appreciated the therapist’s interest in him, his ability to think about things from Mario’s point of view, and the value there was in understanding how his past experiences affected his current view of himself and others. In addition to spending time analyzing Mario’s past and current relationships, many of the sessions consisted of Mario’s describing his daily activities and his plans for the future. It was very beneficial to him to have someone who was interested in listening to him and who enjoyed learning about him and sharing his life. Other than in his relationship with Jill, this was a new experience for him, and it greatly helped him to have a better sense of self-esteem. The key for Mario, and for most people who suffer from the narcissistic/co- narcissistic dilemma, was to experience a relationship in which neither person has to sacrifice himself for the other, and each can appreciate what the other has to offer. While the therapy relationship is focused on the patient, it is important that the therapist engage in it as a real relationship, so that the patient can benefit from the experience of a healthy relationship in which both participants can express themselves and find value and satisfaction in their experience with each other.
As the therapy progressed, Mario reported enjoying his children more, feeling less co-opted by his mother and seeing her more clearly, isolating himself less, and experiencing a greater enjoyment of his life and the people in it.
Jane is the daughter of a narcissistic father and a co-narcissistic mother. Jane’s father was domineering with the family and with his employees in the highly successful business he built, although, interestingly, he was quite co-narcissistic in relation to his own father. Jane’s father was highly critical of her, her sister, and her mother. Jane’s mother had been severely rejected and criticized as a child and, as a result, she developed a strong sense of worthlessness, a loss of inner-directedness, and a tendency to accommodate to the expectations of others. Jane’s mother twice tried to divorce her husband, but her low self-esteem prevented her from doing so; nevertheless, she did decide to go to graduate school while raising her children, earned a Ph.D. in art, and taught at the college level. However, the criticism and denigration she received from her husband reinforced her low sense of self-esteem and prevented her from recognizing her talents or respecting herself. Jane, despite her high intelligence and independent spirit, did not do well either in school or socially. She seemed to lack the motivation to succeed, although while in college she started a home design business and consulted in graphic design. None of her efforts brought recognition or approval from her father, who was relentlessly disparaging. As a result of the constant undermining by her father, and the co-narcissistic model presented by her mother, Jane came to believe that she was unable to succeed in a career and could not form satisfying, stable relationships. Her relationships were marked by self-sacrifice, and she had no direction in her life.
Jane made good use of her therapy. Initially, she described the ways in which her family was dysfunctional, and she gained confidence in the accuracy of her views by the therapist’s agreement with her assessment. She also tested whether the therapist needed to criticize her by characterizing herself as inadequate in a variety of ways, but the therapist showed, by expressing a more positive and realistic view of her, that he had no wish to put her down. He explained these inadequacies as a compliance with her father’s characterizations of her and her identification with her mother. The therapist also pointed out her many talents, her creativity, initiative, and intelligence. Jane was able to make use of this support by doing better at school, becoming less enmeshed with her family, and starting a new graphic design business. Jane was late for a number of sessions, thereby again testing the therapist’s wish to be critical or disparaging of her, as her father would have done. Instead of being critical, the therapist interpreted these latenesses as an inhibition against acting in her own interests by getting the full benefit of her therapy, and therefore a compliance with her father’s view of her. Jane took heart from the therapist’s reactions by continuing to develop healthier personal relationships, being less subservient to her father, and becoming more assertive and successful in the pursuit of her education.Conclusion
All of us are narcissistic, and co-narcissistic, to varying degrees. When our self-esteem varies in relation to how others think and feel about us, we are experiencing a narcissistic vulnerability. When we feel helpful in overcoming narcissistic anxieties to realize that the other person’s behavior is a result of their own views and experience, is not a reflection on oneself, and one’s self- esteem does not have to be affected by their behavior. For co-narcissistic people, who experience strong feelings of guilt and blame, recognizing that they are not responsible for another’s experience is a great relief. It is important for people with either narcissistic or co-narcissistic problems to come to believe that they have intrinsic value, independent of their accomplishments or what others may think of them.
The reader is referred to Elan Golomb’s book, Trappedin the Mirror (1992) for a variety of examples of narcissistic/co- narcissistic parent-child relationships. Another discussion of narcissism can be found in Children of the Self-Absorbed (Brown, 2001).References
Brown, Nina W. (2001). ChildrenoftheSelf-Absorbed. Oakland, Ca: New Harbinger
Golomb, Elan PhD (1992). Trappedin the Mirror. New York: Morrow
Gootnick, Irwin MD (1997). Why You Behave in Ways You Hate: And What You Can Do About It. Roseville, Ca.: Penmarin Books.
Silberschatz, George, PhD, Ed. (2005). TransformativeRelationships. New York: Taylor & Francis.
Weiss, Joseph, MD. (1993). HowPsychotherapyWorks:ProcessandTechnique. New York: Guilford
Alan Rappoport, Ph.D., has practiced psychotherapy in San Francisco and Menlo Park, Ca. for twenty-five years.
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This interesting (therapy-related) portrayal of one of Frida Kahlo's famous quotes about living with and processing her pain caught my attention today.
The original quote reads: "I drank to drown my pain, but the damned pain learned how to swim, and now I am overwhelmed by this decent and good behavior." - Frida Kahlo.
It's a reminder that we can avoid, cover up, act out, numb, disavow, deny, and go to great lengths to annihilate our feelings, both physical and emotional, but they will find a way to float to the surface.
[ted id=1669] International author, therapist, and speaker Esther Perel always offer a diverse perspective on relationships, sex, and "erotic intelligence" so I was excited to see her featured on the Ted website. Her Ted Talk, entitled "Esther Perel: The secret to desire in a long-term relationship," offers a short refresher course on the origins of relationships, attraction, and our evolution into 21st Century monogamy. I highly recommend Esther Perel's material, including her book, "Mating in Captivity: Unlocking Erotic Intelligence."
If you are not in a relationship, Valentine's Day can be a constant reminder of how everyone else is in love, therefore you should be too. For those of you who are nauseated by the explosive pink decor and continuous cycle of flower deliveries, perhaps this video can serve as a reminder that even those in relationships work to maintain physical and emotional connection, attraction, and sustained interest in one another. Revel in the fact that the vast majority of people (coupled, single, men, women, straight, gay, old, young...) will end up in the same place tonight: watching t.v. in their pajamas and eating candy. Also, remember that tomorrow is February 15th a.k.a. not Valentine's Day :)
Take good care.
And thanks, Esther! www.estherperel.com
Let me just start by saying I'm a HUGE fan of listening instead of reading if I have the choice. I love podcasts, audio-books, music, and I probably chose a career that requires listening because it's how I prefer to spend my days. Don't get me wrong; reading is very important and is a daily requirement for most of us. But if reading is not your preferred style of learning, it can be taxing and limiting... a daily strain on your patience and capacity for engagement. I received messages through high school and college that listening instead of reading is "lazy" or even "cheating," (just a small contributing factor to my academic shame spiral/temporary drop out) but I later realized that my learning style and way of being engaged with material is different than others. What a concept!
Some love to create, some love to watch a creation. Some listen, talk, or feel with their hands. Some love history or biology or astronomy or numbers. I love to listen. Particularly, I love to listen to people talk about things that are essential to their existence. I love to listen to and try to grasp people's most important, sacred, and human experiences. And I love to be in touch with my own human experience.
While writing this, I'm reminded of times when I was a teen or in my early twenties and someone much older and seemingly wiser would ask me a terrifying, daunting question about my "life goals," "career interests," or "hobbies." (No wonder we feel such pressure to do something grand at such a young age.) When I was a child, I said, "veterinarian and animals." Then at some point in my early teens I picked up on the idea that being a lawyer was an acceptable answer. Leading up to my shame spiral/temporary college drop out/academic hiatus, I collapsed under the idea that I didn't know. I had NO idea where I fit into this life, career, hobby, goal-oriented world. I felt worthless and confused. In reality, my passion/career/goal/hobby didn't fit into one of the common categories. I felt as though there was something wrong with me until I realized that I could make my own category. This process was not without many doubts, breakdowns, and wondering if I was “crazy”, but it led me to my pot of gold.
Looking back, I wonder what those caring, well-meaning adults would have said if I answered their questions of grandeur with a frank demeanor and straight face, 'I want to engage with people by listening, talking, and connecting on an emotional level in order to heal wounds, create shared human experiences, and feel inspired along-side others on a daily basis.'
It's a funny thought but the absolute truth. I can track it all the way back to my childhood - a path I have been following without even knowing. I simply had no way of explaining at the time. I'm surprised, however, that even now it is not often well-received or understood by the casual, polite yet invasive party conversationalist. "What do you do?" can turn into a lengthy discussion or a very short one. This is not meant to be judgmental or downplay the importance of a variety of interests, passions, careers, and life goals, but rather to highlight the difficulty of feeling like an outsider, especially in our younger, most formative years to the more common life passions and career goals.
I can say with qualitative certainty that even those who fit into one box (career: engineer), do not fit into others (passion: unknown). It can also go something like this: 'Goal/passion/spirituality/meaning/purpose: to make art. Career: ohmygawdimsuchafailure!!! Shame spiral!!' Or, 'Goal: find a partner who loves me. Objectives: overcome terror of being loved, improve self-esteem, find passion in life, heal old wounds. Hobbies: therapy and books about self-esteem that I hide in a newspaper when in public.' These can all be very legitimate, difficult, and growth-producing scenarios with support and the knowledge that you are good, just as you are, without accomplishing any goals or figuring anything out.
A final piece of advice that I learned from a pre-school teacher years ago. She asked her class on a daily basis, "what do you LOVE?" They would talk about the things they love, in the moment, with no consequences or right answers. I try to ask young people (myself included) variations of this question: What do you LOVE? What does it mean to love someone or something? How does it feel to love? What does love sound like? What does love look like? If love were a poem or book, what would it say?
If you are wondering what I listen to or how I get it, I'll try to share more often. I use Audible.com to buy audio-books and it has an iphone and Android app so you can take it on a walk or in the car. Currently listening to Brené Brown's third book, "Daring Greatly" which can be accompanied with the Daring Greatly podcast in which Brené Brown answers questions about the book from readers/listeners. I use the Downcast app for podcasts. Current favorite: "Stuff You Missed in History Class" with Sarah Dowdey and Deblina Chakraborty (one of many fascinating HowStuffWorks.com podcasts).
In searching for inspiration this morning, I stumbled upon a quote by Maya Angelou, one of my personal heroes. In an effort to "throw something back," I've shared it today. This is my reminder that nothing is permanent, to live with an open heart and an open mind, to hug someone every day, and to treat others and myself with kindness and compassion.
“I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”